OK, so I am really angry.
I just went down to Centrelink to put in my form for this fortnight (what with being still considered a “Job Seeker” although I have a part time job). The normal office hours for this particular office are 9-5, and so down I went at about 4:35. Little did I know that the time had been changed to 9 – 4:30. Yeah.
So I stand outside the front looking in. I can see someone in there being helped at the desk.
So I wait there until that person comes out of the door, opening it up. I thought at least I can ask, and try and plead my case of the sheet saying a different time. As I go in, so does another lady who starts yelling and swearing at the 2 guys who obviously tell the people who show up late to go away.
I just ask them if the other local place was open until 5 and they say yes. Thanks, see-ya later. Other woman says “Have a shit day” and cries on her way out.
I don’t know why, but this has left me absolutely fuming!
1. No mercy or love is shown. Even someone with a legitimate reason (due to Centrelink’s fault) is not even given the chance to be heard.
2. The other woman was just, seriously, how is that kind of behaviour meant to help.
3. I was thinking, “I guess they get a lot of people who are difficult, just live off the government’s money, don’t do anything, kind of people with no purpose, and who don’t care” People that others might call “No hopers, losers” etc. And then I realised that I was one of those people to them. Man.
I am just so angry at that. Treating people as if you are better than them, even though the other people working there have absolutely no understanding about why someone might be 5 minutes later than the cut-off time.
It really makes me feel like a nobody, you know. The fact they didn’t even have the courtesy to listen to anything I had to say. It’s kind of like “Sorry, you are obviously a loser who doesn’t care about anyone except for yourself, so go away.”
And anyway, I was sitting here in my anger feeling like a hopeless nobody, thinking even when you do the right thing, people can still disdain you.
You know, I would have gone earlier except for that I needed to put in my job search details.
I would have put my job search details in earlier, but the computer wasn’t free, and I didn’t want to be selfish and do what I wanted just for me.
I did all the right things, but still I end up as a nobody.
So I was chatting with Jesus about it, and then figured that’s what it was like for him too.
He did amazing, wonderful things, and they didn’t just not let him hand in his fortnightly forms – they crucified him.
I’m still fuming and angry, but it helps to keep things in perspective.
